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    I hate myself.

    I'm plain. I'm boring. I don't have any sexual appealing qualities.

    Heck, I'm a C cup for goodness sakes.

    I never went outside during the entirety of my middle school life. The only time I stepped outside was when I went to take my precious dog to go do his business and to go to school. If I went to the mall, it was rare. I had a tendency to lock myself in my room the minute I got home to read a book or to do homework. I sometimes studied when I had a test the next day and I barely ate because I never did anything to have my stomach weep for hunger.

    I was lonely. I was depressed. I rarely ever smiled.

    Geez, I was like a scary frowning clown.

    The moment I entered mid-high, I only had a few friends. Those friends were entirely online.

    Yes, I had a boyfriend. He was my childhood friend. He doesn't count, he's a boyfriend, and he's not someone I can go complain to about my girlish problems and fangirl about my many fandoms with.

    I started writing. Just, typing words in Microsoft Office. Just a couple sentences about a small idea of romance I wanted in my life. It was based around Pokemon, of course, since it was the only fandom I had my heart set on at the time. People commented with such enthusiasm and excitement, it made me feel pleasure for once in my life.

    I decided to continue writing for this purpose. To interact. Though, when I continued to actually write, I began to love it. I could play out the many scenes I wanted to happen in my own life and force them onto characters that had no limitations.

    For the first time in my life, I felt happy, content, and no sadness lingered, for I had found my real source of happiness. My own hobby and people who adored the same fandoms I did.

    I am acknowledged. I am happy. I can't stop smiling.

    Geez, I am like my baby cousin who can't seem to wipe that cutesy little grin off her face.

    As I began to open up online through people who I have never met, I had begun to know them and love them. I began to have idols. I began to actually have conversation with a human being through the sole text of the words I wrote.

    There were certain people that encouraged me to try harder, to reach my goals in life. No, no, not my writing. They wanted me to reach for a bigger picture.

    I began to talk to people in school, and befriend them as well. All because of these several people telling me "You can do it!"

    I'm colorful. I'm hyperactive. I couldn't be any more beautiful on the inside than I am on the outside.

    Heck, who cares what anyone says?

    I love myself.
I can't thank you all enough. :iconaawplz:

Happy 2013!

now let's be honest. Who actually thought up a "cheer up Masq" response when reading the first half of this?

Edit: I mentioned having a C cup. C CUPS ARE GREAT, OKAY. The piece reflected what I thought at the time (which was during middle school). I didn't know this was going to go viral overnight so I deeply apologize if you were offended while reading "I". I honestly didn't mean it to be bad. If you took it that way, I deeply apologize. Everyone that I knew sort of pointed at me and said I was too "small" and if you look at how I organized the piece, if you align the repetition (or whatever literary element I used :XD:) It would sort of say something like "I'm a C cup for goodness sake's, who cares what anyone says?"

Hope that cleared things up :meow:
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eV13il Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2013
I'm with the many other people who faved this, I love it (:
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CzarDeathshead Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2013   Writer
"now let's be honest. Who actually thought up a "cheer up Masq" response when reading the first half of this?" Me, it would be kind of like a sloth trying to help someone with athleticism but yeah lol. Why would anyone be offended by this? I honestly do not see how anyone would be offended. A well written piece of literature.
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Masqurade-Chan Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Student Writer
Thank you so much ;u;
Um, some people were offended of the C cup sentence. ^^;
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CzarDeathshead Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2013   Writer
Why would they be offended by that? I just don't understand.
What is ;u;?

Umm, you're welcome. I don't know why you're thanking me lol.
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Sbstrollerpadawan Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
TL;DR: Writing bettered your life A LOT. I'm planning to do that as well, love your thing there :D
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Masqurade-Chan Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Student Writer
Thank you so much :iconaawplz:
I love your icon
And yes it did. :meow:
Wish you luck!
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Sbstrollerpadawan Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you! Unfortunately, this account kind of looks like... you know, TROLLING purposes ¬¬ I'll perhaps make a new one
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Chilling-Breeze Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2013
I can totally relate. I'm glad you came to love yourself!
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Masqurade-Chan Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Student Writer
Thank you :heart:
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AmiHeartsYou Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2013  Student Writer
D'aaawww sweet pea. :heart:

I'm glad you love yourself because YOU ARE THE MOST ADORABLE PERSON ON THE PLANET EEEEE.

aaa THAT was beautiful. :iconloveloveplz:

I'm a DD, and trust me, having big boobs ain't that great, darling. They call me 'melons'. :iconorzplz:
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