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    I hate myself.

    I'm plain. I'm boring. I don't have any sexual appealing qualities.

    Heck, I'm a C cup for goodness sakes.

    I never went outside during the entirety of my middle school life. The only time I stepped outside was when I went to take my precious dog to go do his business and to go to school. If I went to the mall, it was rare. I had a tendency to lock myself in my room the minute I got home to read a book or to do homework. I sometimes studied when I had a test the next day and I barely ate because I never did anything to have my stomach weep for hunger.

    I was lonely. I was depressed. I rarely ever smiled.

    Geez, I was like a scary frowning clown.

    The moment I entered mid-high, I only had a few friends. Those friends were entirely online.

    Yes, I had a boyfriend. He was my childhood friend. He doesn't count, he's a boyfriend, and he's not someone I can go complain to about my girlish problems and fangirl about my many fandoms with.

    I started writing. Just, typing words in Microsoft Office. Just a couple sentences about a small idea of romance I wanted in my life. It was based around Pokemon, of course, since it was the only fandom I had my heart set on at the time. People commented with such enthusiasm and excitement, it made me feel pleasure for once in my life.

    I decided to continue writing for this purpose. To interact. Though, when I continued to actually write, I began to love it. I could play out the many scenes I wanted to happen in my own life and force them onto characters that had no limitations.

    For the first time in my life, I felt happy, content, and no sadness lingered, for I had found my real source of happiness. My own hobby and people who adored the same fandoms I did.

    I am acknowledged. I am happy. I can't stop smiling.

    Geez, I am like my baby cousin who can't seem to wipe that cutesy little grin off her face.

    As I began to open up online through people who I have never met, I had begun to know them and love them. I began to have idols. I began to actually have conversation with a human being through the sole text of the words I wrote.

    There were certain people that encouraged me to try harder, to reach my goals in life. No, no, not my writing. They wanted me to reach for a bigger picture.

    I began to talk to people in school, and befriend them as well. All because of these several people telling me "You can do it!"

    I'm colorful. I'm hyperactive. I couldn't be any more beautiful on the inside than I am on the outside.

    Heck, who cares what anyone says?

    I love myself.
I can't thank you all enough. :iconaawplz:

Happy 2013!

now let's be honest. Who actually thought up a "cheer up Masq" response when reading the first half of this?

Edit: I mentioned having a C cup. C CUPS ARE GREAT, OKAY. The piece reflected what I thought at the time (which was during middle school). I didn't know this was going to go viral overnight so I deeply apologize if you were offended while reading "I". I honestly didn't mean it to be bad. If you took it that way, I deeply apologize. Everyone that I knew sort of pointed at me and said I was too "small" and if you look at how I organized the piece, if you align the repetition (or whatever literary element I used :XD:) It would sort of say something like "I'm a C cup for goodness sake's, who cares what anyone says?"

Hope that cleared things up :meow:
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eV13il Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2013
I'm with the many other people who faved this, I love it (:
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CzarDeathshead Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2013   Writer
"now let's be honest. Who actually thought up a "cheer up Masq" response when reading the first half of this?" Me, it would be kind of like a sloth trying to help someone with athleticism but yeah lol. Why would anyone be offended by this? I honestly do not see how anyone would be offended. A well written piece of literature.
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Masqurade-Chan Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Student Writer
Thank you so much ;u;
Um, some people were offended of the C cup sentence. ^^;
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CzarDeathshead Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2013   Writer
Why would they be offended by that? I just don't understand.
What is ;u;?

Umm, you're welcome. I don't know why you're thanking me lol.
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Sbstrollerpadawan Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
TL;DR: Writing bettered your life A LOT. I'm planning to do that as well, love your thing there :D
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:iconmasqurade-chan:
Masqurade-Chan Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Student Writer
Thank you so much :iconaawplz:
I love your icon
And yes it did. :meow:
Wish you luck!
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Sbstrollerpadawan Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you! Unfortunately, this account kind of looks like... you know, TROLLING purposes ¬¬ I'll perhaps make a new one
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Chilling-Breeze Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2013
I can totally relate. I'm glad you came to love yourself!
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:iconmasqurade-chan:
Masqurade-Chan Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Student Writer
Thank you :heart:
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AmiHeartsYou Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2013  Student Writer
D'aaawww sweet pea. :heart:

I'm glad you love yourself because YOU ARE THE MOST ADORABLE PERSON ON THE PLANET EEEEE.

aaa THAT was beautiful. :iconloveloveplz:

I'm a DD, and trust me, having big boobs ain't that great, darling. They call me 'melons'. :iconorzplz:
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Masqurade-Chan Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Student Writer
:icondragonglomp::heart: EEEEEEEE BABY YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL VIOLINIST IN ENTIRE UNIVERSE YOUUU :iconcryforeverplz:

oh please darling, if they call you melons they think you hot baby
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SolidadOfTheStars Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
...
....
This is my life's story.
But I cant say my ending is the same. XD
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Masqurade-Chan Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Student Writer
SHHHHHH
YOU BEAUTIFUL BABY///SLAPS YOU
I LOVE YOU :iconaawplz:
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SolidadOfTheStars Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
LOL.
I love you to masq~ ^^
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BlueLightningStrike Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2013
FUCK YEAH!
THAT'S HOW YOU DO THIS!
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:iconmasqurade-chan:
Masqurade-Chan Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Student Writer
:iconaawplz:
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PrettyButUnpretty Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
*hugs anyway*
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:iconmasqurade-chan:
Masqurade-Chan Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Student Writer
YESSSSS
HUGSSS
:iconletmehugyouplz:
:iconbrohugplz:
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:iconprettybutunpretty:
PrettyButUnpretty Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
ALL THE HUGSSSSS
:iconhugplz:
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theliekmudkipz Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
AHHHHHH DARLING
I just got to see this now because my computer decided I wasn't allowed to view deviations d:

THIS IS SO BEAUTIFUL THOUGH DEAR JESUS
I CAN'T EVEN FORM A COHERENT SENTENCE FOR YOU I'M SO SORRY
I'M SORRY BECAUSE I'M SO SPEECHLESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
you are so wonderful, Masq. Thank you for sharing your beauty with us.
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Masqurade-Chan Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Student Writer
ASDFGHJKL;;;;;
YOU
ARE
WONDERFUL
TOO
DEAREST
MUDKIP-SAMA
NEVER FORGET THAT :iconcryforeverplz:
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theliekmudkipz Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
AHHHHH SORRY I DON'T HAVE ANY INTERNET
BUT

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH :iconicantevenplz:
THANK YOU THAT MEANS SO MUCH COMING FROM YOU

LIKE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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XxPRxX117 Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2013  Student Digital Artist
:iconbrohugplz: :iconletmehugyouplz:
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Masqurade-Chan Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Student Writer
:iconoldschoolownedplz:
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XxPRxX117 Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2013  Student Digital Artist
:iconsupertackleplz:
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The-True-ZX Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Over 1200 views in a day. By the gods...

I've kinda gathered and pieced together this part of your life's story as we talked, either in comments, Skype, or on Livestream well, apart from the c-cup and never going outside parts

But now look at you! In just over a year, you have a large following, have a great social circle of close friends, your writing has improved, and your lovely and sometimes crazed personality has really shone throughout this time. Things are looking up for ya, babe, and I'm happy to talk to ya on the rare occasions we do.

Dearest, I just... GAH! I JUST WANT TO LOVE YOU!!! :iconoldschoolownedplz:
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PassiveBerzerker Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013   General Artist
I'ma be honest here; as someone who does not know you, who has no bias, no inclination to care, this piece does not stand out to me in any way. It tells me something, sure, but it doesn't show any sort of literary style, it doesn't do anything in particular to make me sympathize with the character, and is painfully bland. Actually, I feel like I just read a Country song written in prose format with its eventual optimism.
However, the first and last line stand out, and it'd be nice to see something done with that.
I have to ask, why didn't you just make this a journal entry? That seems like a far more fitting placement.
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Masqurade-Chan Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013  Student Writer
:iconnwthplz: Someone who understands my confusion. LOL
Because I have free will and decided to make it a literary piece :icondragonlaugh: I never thought this would be popular. Honestly. I was just sharing this with my watchers and such. :icontearplz: I agree with you, there is no literary style in this. At all. None whatsoever. Thanks for the honest comment. It made me laugh. :iconbrohugplz:
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PassiveBerzerker Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2013   General Artist
De rien.
I was just scrolling through the "Most Popular" when I saw this, read it, and was gently rustled.
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:iconmasqurade-chan:
Masqurade-Chan Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2013  Student Writer
Imagine how I felt. :iconnwthplz:
I woke up and all of a sudden I have over twenty comments sitting in my inbox. :iconwhutplz:
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PassiveBerzerker Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2013   General Artist
I can only imagine if one of my most dur humor pieces (because I have nothing else that is comparable) managed to make it that far, when I've posted several that I actually tried on. Flattered, prolly', but "I never asked for this" certainly. Some /ragequit too, I'm sure.
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imachi120 Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
and Im going to make another comment on this because I dont think one comment is enough...

YOU ARE PERFECT AS YOU ARE
and whoever dares to say otherwise, Boy or Girl, Child or Adult, Wise or Dumb...
They should take a look at themselves before even judging you.. or else they shall respond to my wrath and a couple of others.
Because you're worth way more than they could ever imagine and you are never going to be less than anyone.
you are who you are and thats exactly why we love you.
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Masqurade-Chan Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Student Writer
:icondragonglomp:
DEAREST
I LOVE YOU TOO
AND
YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL
AND AMAZING
AND BADASS
YOU NEVER FORGET THAT EITHER
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imachi120 Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
No... I didn't think of giving a cheer up Masq response at first.
I thought of giving you a bitch-slap just for saying you were boring... and then I just thought of getting a plane ticket and arrive at your house in the middle of the night just to hug you because you're the most amazing person I had ever known.

and dont get me even started with cup sizes... IVE BEEN STUCK WITH B CUPS AND IM OLDER THAN YOU!
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Masqurade-Chan Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Student Writer
:icondragonglomp: yay hugs!

AND YOU ARE FRICKEN BEAUTIFUL SO SHUSH
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kat323 Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
wow, i thought you were writing story, but when i realized that you were talking about yourself, i dunno, im just happy that you're happy!~
^^
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Masqurade-Chan Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Student Writer
yay for happiness! :dummy:
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kat323 Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
^^ yay~~
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Misaspuppy Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Please at least you are a C cup, I'm fucking A cup. Lolz
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Masqurade-Chan Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Student Writer
Psh, and I bet you're amazing so shush =3=
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Misaspuppy Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks (coming from one of my favorite writers) that's like... I don't even... THANK YOU
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Adonael Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
When you said C cup, I thought this piece was mocking what society thought. But I kept reading and through the genuine development and growth of your self-esteem, I can see how this would be a touching piece of for many going through similar struggles.

Bravo for getting this far. Keep going! :la:
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Masqurade-Chan Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Student Writer
Thank you dear! :la:
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Adonael Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
No worries :rose:
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Sky2713 Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This is so amazing! You totally overcame! Thank you for the inspiration :)
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FallenFromInsanity Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:iconrainbowtearplz:
Masqy, baby, you have no idea how much I can relate to you right now.
I was never really popular/social/outgoing in my middle school/high school/college years and practically had no boobs at all in middle school 8|
I didn't like myself a lot either and never had a boyfriend. still single to this day
I only wish I discovered the joy of writing, and sharing that writing, sooner.
Good for you for getting into this early and for feeling much better about yourself.
I only wish that this happiness will continue for years to come.
NOW COME HERE AND LET ME HUG THE CRAP OUTTA YOU :iconsupertackleplz:
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moonbee2001 Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013
i no how you fel :3
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TheAssholeCommenter Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013  Professional Artist
It's always batshit boring to read the dumb life of a beta. Kill yourself.
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Masqurade-Chan Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013  Student Writer
LMAO Love your username :XD: But if you find the piece boring then don't read it :meow:
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iceyr Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013  Student Writer
c cups are awesome writing automatically makes you awesome and im glad writing cheered u up and allow you to be open to ur trueself
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